Twenty-two years ago I became schizophrenic. I heard demonic voices imploring me to kill and rob people. Before this I had believed in the benevolence of humanity. But I became acutely aware of a completely different reality. I knew some inversion had taken place. I knew there was a dark force trying to conquer me. But doctors seemed to be totally lost. They were more interested in medication than resolving my anxiety and solving the problem that caused my illness. I knew medicine would not change the conditions which caused my illness. But they certainly did help to relieve those who desired to see me in the hospital as a disabled mental patient. Yes, some people want to see others fall. Doctors are not well trained to handle this problem. Their main issue is safety. And as long as I am not being beaten doctors behave as if the problem is mine, not a social problem. But this is where the inversion is. Doctors' support of the evil prayers of jealous people and their lack of support for those who are the victims of those evil prayers (the mentally ill) indicates an inadequate social defensiveness. When those who are chosen to protect us fail we are left to struggle against mobs of ill wishers alone.  This inversion of social expectation took me by surprise. I never dreamed doctors would fumble defining a disease as old as schizophrenia. And as I think more about it I realize they don't have schizophrenia, so they don't know what it is as well as I do.
     So I began to tackle this on my own. I began to see that my criticism was accurate, but ineffective. So, what was required was to validate others' point of view. Being opposed to others' point of view leads to uncompromising conflict. Therefore, I need to see what needs must be fulfilled. Those who feel threatened by me need to know that they have power. My excellent educational performance may have been perceived as a threat by people. This would motivate them to pray against me. But this submission to inferiority assures their fall into the abyss. Their fixation on being number one is a nightmare. So, how do I manage their fear? I chose to have empathy for them. My concern for their needs will reduce their anxiety and mine!